Fuck You...

I haven't been on here in a long time. I'm still transitioning from NYC to Fl.

The biggest thing that I miss so far is the gay community. Not that I was into it in NY but at least people there were more aware of homosexuals. So far here in Fl. there's only one lesbian bar. One. How pathetic is that. But back to the topic. The thing that has my boxers in a bunch is the blatant rudeness. I know New Yorkers are infamous for being rude but we're not mean. People here act as if seeing a butch is this heinous thing. I see the stares, the snickers, the horrified look-a-away motions. The worst though is what happened at Home Depot earlier. I'm walking with my mother and girlfriend down an isle and these two middle aged men are walking towards us. The older of the two starts looking at me and laughing in a gross and snarky way. I turned right around and glared. Luckily for them my mother was there. I don't like to start fights with her around. It just makes things worse. What kills me is what because I dress differently, I don't conform to conventional gender rules, because of who I sleep with that I'm devoid of feelings? And on that note why should I conform to what mainstream society dictates as "normal." If that's the case then we'd still have slaves, women would be mens property and white wigs would be high fashion. Fuck YOU. If you're gonna be prick at least do it behind my back.

It makes me feel like I'm less than human. It makes me wonder if I made the right decision to leave NY. I know now that I don't always want to live here in Florida. Though I'm not naive enough to think that NY or SF or Seattle don't have their share of ignorant people but I dunno there's more culture in those places. I guess I'll just have to stick it out here. I traded one set of problems for another.